What this life? What is this underworld we live in?

Couched between smothering noise and infinite loneliness, it waits for us. Your eyes burn and your head hurts from weeping

the fake world is where we go when we would rather not experience reality, because reality is pain for people like us.

in the fake world, we are strong, we live, and we thrive amongst that which makes us happy, we prefer it because we are safe, we feel a fleeting sort of peace

The fake world is where we get to pretend that we don't have to experience the awful reality of modernity. Where the awful people we are surrounded by can't hurt us, where we can choose our friends. This pacifier is often the internet for young people, or video games.

We are supposed to be struggling with all our might against the great challenges life has to give us, but instead we choose sin, and reject natures guidance and substitute our own. Because of our aggression against nature, we shall never know peace.

HOW COULD WE HAVE KNOWN, WE WERE JUST KIDS, WE DIDN'T KNOW ANY BETTER.

An entire generation of young men and women are now devoid of life, we would have rather watched YouTube and played flash games than enjoy our childhoods, We were forced to grow up, dealing with very very adult issues before we even knew algebra, and now we have NOTHING. We engaged in our fake realities because we thought it was more comfortable, there was no way for us to be hurt in any meaningful way, or at least we thought. Now we stand atop a mountain of false memories and wasted youth. We are now apart from our false realities and we writhe in anguish, nothing that used to define our lives seems fun anymore because now we are old enough to see them as mere illusions. Sucking on our pacifiers in our fake worlds has made us perceive that falseness to be reality, and because that was reality for us we are now thrust into a world that is alien to us, every joke our more normal peers make confuses us, we exist in a constant state of fear and stress.


So what is the Underworld?

Do you remember those times when you chose not to do your homework and sucked on your own personal pacifier instead because you didn't want to apply yourself to your own life? After you were done and it was 11 at night you remember your homework, you remember your procrastination and how shitty of a person you are for doing that. You stress and get angry, just to do it again tomorrow. Eventually you will learn that you are much happier in the false reality, you will sabotage your own journey in the real world because you want to spend more time in the false world because it makes sense, it feels better, and you feel safe when you are in it.

Doubling over in the realization of our sins and the destruction we have caused for ourselves we cannot handle the comedy. These brief moments we have away from our destruction, we do not feel bliss or enjoyment, but the sorrow that comes with a life without purpose. We cry out for help but we are not someone to be helped. We are no longer beings that can exist in the real world, we are weak and ruined. all the time we spent sucking on our pacifiers dismantled us, prevented us from living our lives

Now we stand with two options, we can cut our losses and be introduced into the world we never saw, we will experience great pain and struggle, we will want to die, we will be depressed, we will not know peace. Or... we could forget all that and do what we have always done, we can be comfortable once again and struggle against goals in our false reality.

This world is a comedy, not a tragedy, and we are the clowns.


why did we have to be born into this world standing across an abyss from our dreams? why did the world have to split in twain and leave us behind? we are sinners and we shall never know peace. death will forever be on our minds but we do not want to die, we want to live what a horrible way to exist.

I feel awful.


ARE WE DESTINED TO BE FOREVER VICTIMS OF OUR SITUATION? WHY DO WE HAVE TO ONLY NOW KNOW THE ABOMINATION THAT IS OUR PLACE IN THE WORLD? THE MOVIES WERE A LIE, THE STORIES I WAS TOLD WERE LIES, ILL NEVER BE RICH, ILL NEVER BE HAPPY, ILL NEVER EVEN HAVE FUN, I WILL NEVER KNOW PEACE. I WILL NEVER EXPERIENCE THE JOYS OF LIVING IN THIS CRUEL WORLD

ONE CHANCE AT LIFE AND IT HAS BEEN TAKEN FROM ME!